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My name is Tinette.I am 39 yrs old and have 3 teenagers.I have struggled with weight since i was about 12 yrs old.I have desperatly tried to loose weight in the last yr and a half but instead i have gained a lot of weight due to stress and grief.You know the old on and off again crap.It has always been very hard for my body to let go of weight.Ive recently been on a 1700 cal a day 20 min on a stationary bike every day. I did it for a month and lost 1 lb.This is just the last thing Ive tried. They all have dismal results.I weigh 300 lbs now. I have days where i feel as if i do not want to live any more.I feel so trapped in theis hideous blob that is my betrayer body.My husband no longer wants to touch me.My back hurts all the time.I am ashamed when i go out in public.If this doesnt work for me i just do not what i will do.I have never had support.I have kept a food diary but that did not seem to do much either.I can not afford to consider a lap band or other surgery.I feel like i am in hell.